My 30th birthday is vastly approaching. Two months almost to the day and I'll have left my 20's! I'm not sure why but this scares the pants off me! I'm not going to lie it is terrifying, I wonder can I still call my mom crying when something goes wrong? I'm I too old now for certain things?
Life isn't what I dreamt of all those years ago. My husband doesn't look like a half naked cowboy with muscles for days like imagined, although he did buy his first cowboy hat the other day! I don't live out in the country with my seven kids either. Before the thought crosses your mind, no I didn't have a litter. God did bless me with two wonderful boys that are just as wild as seven little ones!
I've decided for me it is time to be a little selfish. I have to put forth the effort on some things that I have hidden in the depths of my soul that need to be laid to rest once and for all.
I can't go into my 30's with the bondage of my past haunting me at every turn. I have to live with it everyday and I have to learn that my past doesn't define me.
My husband put it best, God forgives me now I just have to forgive myself!
I've set some pretty clear goals for myself for the next couple of months!
~ Finish a much needed bible study
~ Finish the Insanity workout
~ Finish organizing some things around the house
~ Get more time in with my kiddos
~ Be a size 6 by my 30th birthday
~ Learn not to dwell on the past, I have to move on as hard as it may be!
The most important thing is, I want to turn 30 knowing I accomplished my biggest goal of all! I want to be proud of who I am and what HE has made me! I will turn 30 and feel the love of Christ before all others, and that has to be the most profound thing in my life to date.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Saturday, August 4, 2012
My Approach to Homemaking
One can scour the Internet for days visiting blogs on homemaking! I think in an essence we are all in search of the same thing, 'how does she do it?' I'm guilty as charged, I love to see how others make the day go by, probably because I have this intense need to figure out a better way and maybe a little curiosity as to what someone elses world is like. (Does that contradict itself?, oh well you get what I mean!) I've taken the time to hone my homemaking skills, theoretically, but lacked in driving it into home every time! I simply fall short, I try this for a while and then that, but nothing seems to stick! Maybe it is a lack of desire or my impatient brain wanting everything done right away. Then when things don't get done, I'm blowing my top and give up! Maybe I just need more caffeine...hmmm, food for thought.
Any who, my approach to homemaking is simple, TREAT IT LIKE A J-O-B!! You know one of those things that sends out a paycheck from time to time. Most of our husbands have one, so why shouldn't we? My house is my job, my kids are my blessings! You can't get that confused, once you think of your kids as a job all sorts of things could go wrong.
Like any job one has a job title and responsibilities, right...
So what would a housewives job title be that isn't just plain housewife...you don't always want to get one those comments all the time. You know the, 'OH you stay HOME all Day!' comments. I like to think of myself as a Domestic Engineer! Has a nice ring to it huh?
Lets see job title, check! Now on to job responsibilities (insert chuckle here)! The amount of personal jobs we have is enormous and probably surpasses the hours we have to get them all done in a day. WRONG! Lets be honest none of us are perfect! We can't get it all done because we set our own expectations too high! We seek to be like the Proverbs 31 woman, but HELLO she is just an example. God knows we can't get this all done, literally. So lets make things a little more simple, then add in the extras when we get the time.
Simple Jobs of the Domestic Engineer:
1. Don't burn down the house, key factor can't be a housewife if you burn down the house!
2. Provide food for household members, no extras just the person you are married to and the kids!
3. Wash underwear and towels daily, bad things happen when your husband runs out of clean undies and doesn't have a towel to dry off with :-)
See simple...everything else you get done in the day is a bonus! I know what your thinking, 'OH LAWD her house is a mess!' Well today it is but usually it is not! I somehow manage to find the time to get a few other things done.
My point is don't focus on what you can't get done, focus on what you can!! We are our own worse enemies and the only person who is going to get upset the most if nothing gets done is us!
Now go be great domestic engineers!
Any who, my approach to homemaking is simple, TREAT IT LIKE A J-O-B!! You know one of those things that sends out a paycheck from time to time. Most of our husbands have one, so why shouldn't we? My house is my job, my kids are my blessings! You can't get that confused, once you think of your kids as a job all sorts of things could go wrong.
Like any job one has a job title and responsibilities, right...
So what would a housewives job title be that isn't just plain housewife...you don't always want to get one those comments all the time. You know the, 'OH you stay HOME all Day!' comments. I like to think of myself as a Domestic Engineer! Has a nice ring to it huh?
Lets see job title, check! Now on to job responsibilities (insert chuckle here)! The amount of personal jobs we have is enormous and probably surpasses the hours we have to get them all done in a day. WRONG! Lets be honest none of us are perfect! We can't get it all done because we set our own expectations too high! We seek to be like the Proverbs 31 woman, but HELLO she is just an example. God knows we can't get this all done, literally. So lets make things a little more simple, then add in the extras when we get the time.
Simple Jobs of the Domestic Engineer:
1. Don't burn down the house, key factor can't be a housewife if you burn down the house!
2. Provide food for household members, no extras just the person you are married to and the kids!
3. Wash underwear and towels daily, bad things happen when your husband runs out of clean undies and doesn't have a towel to dry off with :-)
See simple...everything else you get done in the day is a bonus! I know what your thinking, 'OH LAWD her house is a mess!' Well today it is but usually it is not! I somehow manage to find the time to get a few other things done.
My point is don't focus on what you can't get done, focus on what you can!! We are our own worse enemies and the only person who is going to get upset the most if nothing gets done is us!
Now go be great domestic engineers!
Friday, August 3, 2012
Confessions of a Sinner
I'm not perfect, but then again what Christian is?
I have sinned just like everyone else on this Earth! I am thankful that Jesus died on the cross for my sins! I am blessed by Him and the Father, able to be forgiven for my sins!! For the select few that might read this...these are a few things that I have to remind myself it is OKAY to mess up sometimes, as long as I come to Him in the most humble way possible and confess my sins!
I struggle with Christianity more than Vanity...sometimes my appearance to others is more important than my appearance to HIM!
My children don't have the mother they deserve...my anger catapults me to place no woman should be and the verbal garbage that spews from my mouth can be horrific.
My husband is left picking up the pieces all to often...he is my strength, he is hard to love, and he is my weakness all in one.
My home does not reflect the image I want people to perceive...in other words it is more of a mess than a hand reaching out and welcoming people.
My feet are dirty...I have stepped on others to achieve what I thought I deserved and not what HE thought I deserved.
I have a jealous heart...I constantly compare myself to others, and think 'why not me?'
I hold myself less accountable than I do others...I am the 'teapot calling the kettle black' as they say in the south.
My arms are very short at times...I don't reach out to help others as much as I should.
My cardboard confession would do something like this...
"I am stubborn, strong-willed, and bitter"
"by the Grace of God I am FORGIVEN!"
God has called me aside to focus on myself, and how I need to be disciplined to be a better person. No I don't feel like I'm in time out, I feel like I have been called to enjoy life more and He is sharing his wisdom with me to become more!
I have sinned just like everyone else on this Earth! I am thankful that Jesus died on the cross for my sins! I am blessed by Him and the Father, able to be forgiven for my sins!! For the select few that might read this...these are a few things that I have to remind myself it is OKAY to mess up sometimes, as long as I come to Him in the most humble way possible and confess my sins!
I struggle with Christianity more than Vanity...sometimes my appearance to others is more important than my appearance to HIM!
My children don't have the mother they deserve...my anger catapults me to place no woman should be and the verbal garbage that spews from my mouth can be horrific.
My husband is left picking up the pieces all to often...he is my strength, he is hard to love, and he is my weakness all in one.
My home does not reflect the image I want people to perceive...in other words it is more of a mess than a hand reaching out and welcoming people.
My feet are dirty...I have stepped on others to achieve what I thought I deserved and not what HE thought I deserved.
I have a jealous heart...I constantly compare myself to others, and think 'why not me?'
I hold myself less accountable than I do others...I am the 'teapot calling the kettle black' as they say in the south.
My arms are very short at times...I don't reach out to help others as much as I should.
My cardboard confession would do something like this...
"I am stubborn, strong-willed, and bitter"
"by the Grace of God I am FORGIVEN!"
God has called me aside to focus on myself, and how I need to be disciplined to be a better person. No I don't feel like I'm in time out, I feel like I have been called to enjoy life more and He is sharing his wisdom with me to become more!
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