A 'Bloggers' Shift of Focus

I have given so much thought to things lately.  Have you ever wondered WOW, how did I end up here??  I guess that is what I have been doing lately, searching for what drives me but always coming up empty.  Sure I have plenty to be thankful for, but I also have plenty to wonder WHY ME!?!  I'm sure we all have those days, but for some reason, I think I'm throwing in the towel, I can't fight life anymore!  I'm at a crossroads do stand up and face life head on, or do I lay down and let it run over me like an 18-wheeler?  Its been some time since I posted so I figure I should give you a quick run down on how things have been here, of course in true bullet form (God knows I love a list).

• My journey to God has been spinning in circles, yes I trust in the LORD with everything I have but when he makes life so chaotic I find it hard to focus on him.
• My 6 year old son, LoLo is autistic, he had been doing really well!!  Lately he is combative, disruptive, and falling behind in school on the 3rd week!  Yes he's verbal and I'm so thankful for that, plus he's in a regular classroom!  However, he isn't getting services anymore like he should and that will STOP soon, even if this momma bear has to go postal on someone.
• My 3 year old son, Booger, has been formally diagnosed as ADHD (the most severe form) and takes Ritalin 3 times a day, yes 3 small doses, don't judge me, if your son was tearing apart the walls and peeing on everything you would medicate too, not to mention clawing people face's!!
• My husband, Big B, has been promoted at work, thanks for him finally treating his ADD again!  I'm in a world of special little brains in my home, I often wonder if I'm the normal brain or if they are?
• I opened my own business!!  Had great success, then closed my own business which we will get to on the reason why.
• I lost and gained and lost and gained about 25 pounds in the course of a year!  Again reason to come!
• Here come the zingers!  On April 2, 2012 I had a partial hysterectomy!  I was 29 years old, I really thought I wanted it just as much as I needed it, but then BAM I realized no more babies, it was final the big family I always dreamed of would never happen.   This is one reason for all the weight gain!
• I started Advocare, it was a miracle, but a very expensive miracle!!  This is the reason for my weight loss, and then more weight gain!
• On August 28,2013 I was at my regular check-up at the lady doctor and she found the dreaded lump!  Mind you this was only a month ago!  Since then I went through a series of test I have had a mammogram, MRI, Ultrasound, trip to MD Anderson the best cancer hospital ever, another mammogram, another ultrasound and 14!!! core needle biopsies and FNA biopsies.  I found out a few days ago that it was not cancerous!!!  I have a large radial scar, which I'm apparently too young for at the ripe old age of 30!  The reason I closed my business is so I could focus on all this!
•   I may still have to have surgery to have this radial scar, which really isn't even a scar, removed.  Apparently if they didn't get good biopsies of the back side of the scar or center then there is a chance it could still be cancer.  I haven't told my family all that!  Lets just let my momma think its all peaches and creams right now. 

As you can see, with all this I find myself questioning so much, and they tell me I need less stress!  Seriously I would have to run away and live my days on an island complete with Dr. Pepper on tap and enough fast food restaurants to cater to my specific needs at any moment!  A woman can dream right??  So what do I do?  I don't know anymore, get down on my knees and pray?  Pray for what, where do I start, how do I know he's listening??  How can I be so strong for everyone else, and still motivate myself??  I guess all I can do is wake up tomorrow and try again, and again.  Diet and exercise is what the doctor said, in fact a special anti-cancer diet is my new destiny and trying to fit in the time for a few workouts, oh and I'm now a cub scout den leader!!  Not sure how I ended up on that one either.  So if anyone out there reads this, HELP!  How do I keep going??

Advocare...My Weight Loss Savior

On April 7th I started my journey again with weight loss at 169 pounds!  I weighed in just days before at 170 pounds!!!  I know to some this might not seem like much, but I delivered both my boys at 171 pounds!  I assure you I am NOT pregnant, which is why I was seriously FREAKED OUT!

I decided it was time for change, so I ordered the Advocare 24 day challenge.  There is only about 5 people that know I was on Advocare, if it didn't work no one would know I failed!  Yeah right, I kicked butt and I ate sushi!  In 24 days I lost 7 pounds and 12.5 inches!!!!!!  Holy crap it works!!!!

This morning I weighed in again and to my surprise (serious serious surprise) I weighed in at a 158 pounds!!  Let me save you the math, that is 12 pounds in a little over a month!  I am sold and can't wait to see my family on Father's Day to show off my weight loss.  I haven't seen my parents since Easter and my brother's family since Christmas, so I'm praying that we are all together again! 

I will update my Advocare journey weekly!  I'm sold, I'm a believer, my prayers were answered with this system it works for me!  I hope to update photos of food that I eat while on this and of course update my weight loss.  Motivation from others is the best way to keep going even when the scale doesn't move!

Southern Gal Paper Crafts is Born

It is no secret that life can be hectic for anyone!  However, after six years at home I needed a hobby!!  I have always had this weird, borderline obsessive, love for paper.  Seriously, no joke I had color coded notebook paper in college!  I loved to scrapbook but just didn't have the desire to sit down and create album after album.  Then came homeroom mom time, to my surprise I was fairly good at the crafting thing.  I bought a die cutting machine in efforts to make a pirate banner for my son's party because I couldn't find one I liked, and then my new hobby was born!
Southern Gal isn't about the profits, it is about the chance for me to create something someone else will love and personable for their party.  I make invitations, banners, centerpieces, cake toppers, cupcake toppers, door hangers, and pretty much anything you need for a party could be shipped to you!  I've gained some following over the last couple of months and I'm pleased to say that it is exactly what I hoped it would be.  Enough to keep my extra time a little busy and not busy enough that it takes away from my family or housework.  I LOVE IT!!  Here are some examples of what Southern Gal is all about!  If you want to order visit my page on Facebook here or my Etsy shop.



Custom Order Safari Banner $20.00

Custom Order Monkey Banner $20.00

Mickey Mouse Banner $25.00

Fabric 'Rag' Dr. Seuss Banner $30.00



Pirate banner $25.00



 

WOW...It's Been A While!!

Hello to all!!  I had taken a 'break' from blogging because I thought what is the use?  I thought I didn't have readers, well apparently I DO!  So I might give this blogging thing a whirl...again.  So much has happened this year so here is a quick run down to get everyone caught up!

My son is almost done with kindergarten!!!!!  Having a son with autism is tough, I can't tell you how blessed I am to have a high functioning son who loves school now!  Yes, we did medicate, that is our choice and doesn't work for everyone.  It was through much prayer that we felt the need that his mental well being was more important!  Let's face it when your baby ask you if life would be easier without him, you know it is time!!  He is so happy now and really is a completely different kid!  I thank, no we all thank GOD everyday for the JOY he has brought our son!

My baby is still completely WILD...but I wouldn't have it any other way.  Except maybe I shouldn't call him my baby anymore since he will be 4 this year!!

I survived homeroom mom!!  I will create a post showing off all our projects! 

I'm still losing weight and struggling at it!  I have recently discovered Advocare!!  It is changing my weight loss goals into something achievable.  More on this to come too!!

Oh my the biggie!! I started my own business!!!!!  Southern Gal Paper Crafts went from being a dream to a reality!!  More on this to come as well! 

Some things to look forward to on my blog resurfacing.  Advocare and my journey in weight loss, homeroom mom projects, Southern Gal products and giveaways, house projects before and after, and most important my main purpose here.  Being the most awesome, modest, strong, young (shhh...I'm not 31, yet!) housewife I can be! 

NEVER FORGET~~WE CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES US STRENGTH!!!!!